Archive for Thoughts

Promise

Definition:  a declaration that something will or will not be done, given, etc., by one (From Dictionary.com)

When someone says they will do something, it means they WILL.  Right?  Apparently not anymore.  Now it is just an empty word ones uses to give false hope.  “I promise to keep my promises or leave you alone.”  Apparently all that means is “if I want to.”  He says he will leave me alone if I tell him to.  Instead he says “I dont want to.”  And, apparently if I don’t let him break his promise because “he doesn’t want to,”  then I don’t care about him.

Am I the only one who finds this to be a crock of shit?

Things are Changing

Link and I had been planning out in September.  Now it loks like it might not happen.  Big Red called today to tell us our car is junk.  The engine needs to be replaced, and its not worth itto put that much money in the car.  his advice is to junk it and invest in a newer one.  The timing couldn’t have been better.  (End sarcasm)

On other notes, the person we were planning to moving with, has decided to move out of state instead.  Though this did come at a bad time, I am happy she has made a choice.  I think I shall start saving up some stampsin advance.  XD

Starr has contacted me and I am enjoying our recent emails.  It’s nice to be kept up to date with her happenings, and has deffinatly reduced the worry I’ve been feeling.  Last I heard she was wating to get the ticket out there.  I hope to hear back soon.

I’ve been off my depression meds for a few weeks now, and I must say, I have more motivation.  I find myself, able to be happy, whereas my med had not let me.  However, my lows are also lower.  I’m wondering if instead of being treated for normal depression, I should ask if I may be Bipolar-Depresive.  I plan to do some reading about it and wehn I see him next, I’ll let my doctor know what I’ve found.  Wish me luck!

Excitement

Today brings some hope of getting rid of this infection. I’m doing my best to postpone the doctor visit since we currently are in the proses of getting insurance. But ugh… The horrible, bitter after taste of Cranberry Juice. So gross.

I’ve been thinking about my tattoo idea a lot lately since I’ve found an artist to draw out the design. It excites me that I may soon see it completed on paper. There is still teh nagging fear in my mind about Links family. I don’t want to cause them any grief, nor do I wish to be looked upon as a rebel or punk. I’m still going to be the same me regardless of the ink. I know some would say to go with what I want and not worry about pleasing others. Thing is, I do want to please others. >.<

I’m going to wait untill the final design is finished before I go around checking their reactions.