Archive for Life
{ August 3, 2008 @ 5:12 am }
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{ Life, Thoughts }
{ Tags: broken promises, lies, stupid }
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Definition: a declaration that something will or will not be done, given, etc., by one (From Dictionary.com)
When someone says they will do something, it means they WILL. Right? Apparently not anymore. Now it is just an empty word ones uses to give false hope. “I promise to keep my promises or leave you alone.” Apparently all that means is “if I want to.” He says he will leave me alone if I tell him to. Instead he says “I dont want to.” And, apparently if I don’t let him break his promise because “he doesn’t want to,” then I don’t care about him.
Am I the only one who finds this to be a crock of shit?
{ July 28, 2008 @ 5:55 pm }
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{ Life, Thoughts }
{ Tags: Car, depression, Family, Friends, Ironic, Meds, Moving }
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Link and I had been planning out in September. Now it loks like it might not happen. Big Red called today to tell us our car is junk. The engine needs to be replaced, and its not worth itto put that much money in the car. his advice is to junk it and invest in a newer one. The timing couldn’t have been better. (End sarcasm)
On other notes, the person we were planning to moving with, has decided to move out of state instead. Though this did come at a bad time, I am happy she has made a choice. I think I shall start saving up some stampsin advance. XD
Starr has contacted me and I am enjoying our recent emails. It’s nice to be kept up to date with her happenings, and has deffinatly reduced the worry I’ve been feeling. Last I heard she was wating to get the ticket out there. I hope to hear back soon.
I’ve been off my depression meds for a few weeks now, and I must say, I have more motivation. I find myself, able to be happy, whereas my med had not let me. However, my lows are also lower. I’m wondering if instead of being treated for normal depression, I should ask if I may be Bipolar-Depresive. I plan to do some reading about it and wehn I see him next, I’ll let my doctor know what I’ve found. Wish me luck!
{ July 17, 2008 @ 7:24 pm }
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{ Life, Thoughts }
{ Tags: acceptance, Family, fear, infections, sick, tattoo }
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Today brings some hope of getting rid of this infection. I’m doing my best to postpone the doctor visit since we currently are in the proses of getting insurance. But ugh… The horrible, bitter after taste of Cranberry Juice. So gross.
I’ve been thinking about my tattoo idea a lot lately since I’ve found an artist to draw out the design. It excites me that I may soon see it completed on paper. There is still teh nagging fear in my mind about Links family. I don’t want to cause them any grief, nor do I wish to be looked upon as a rebel or punk. I’m still going to be the same me regardless of the ink. I know some would say to go with what I want and not worry about pleasing others. Thing is, I do want to please others. >.<
I’m going to wait untill the final design is finished before I go around checking their reactions.
{ July 15, 2008 @ 6:43 am }
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{ Life }
{ Tags: infections, sick }
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Yesterday as Link and I were getting ready for the day, I started to feel a pressure in my lower abdomen. Not again I thought to myself as I began to recognize the symptoms as a UTI (urinary tract infection). Within the next hour the pain and urgency apperead and grew. Just my luck to get a UTI when I have no current insurance. Lol.
Link and pop went out to get me some pain killers, and we are hoping my body will fight my infection on its own. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.
The only problem have with the painkillers I’m using is that they upset my stomache. Small price to pay for no uti pain though. I’d much rather have the upset stomach. Lol.
On another note, a girl I was talking to on Yahoo Instant Messenger sucedded in pissing me off. Not like its all that hard to anger a person but still. She was pestering me about my age and getting upset because I wouldn’t tell her. Not her bussinuess anyway. So what does she do? Proceed to spell out my full name, my location, and my age. Funny thing, she still got my age wrong. It was seriously sad. When I told her she had gotten it wrong, she proceeded to tell me I act like a 12 year old. Which is funny because she originally thought I was 27. God she’s annoying… Well, nothing to be done, so I guess I’ll just ignore her and forget about this.
{ July 13, 2008 @ 2:33 pm }
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{ Life }
{ Tags: Car, Crazyness, Family, Friends, tattoo }
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So many things have been going on lately I’m beginning to wonder if this is a sick soap opera no one told me about. My best Friend Starr has run into some trouble lately. I just found out that she recently got out of a mental hospital and her and her guy are currently homeless. They are looking for a way to get a bus ticket out to Oklahoma where a friend is going to house and marry them. I’m worried about her. No matter how many times she tells me there is no need to worry, I still do. She has been my friend for 12 or 13 years now, how could i not worry about her? I’m hoping they will be alright and able to get out there safely.
On another note, I’ve been having some trouble with a love ‘V’. My husband doesn’t know what to make of things and truthfully neither do I. My ex-girlfriend dropped by for a surprise visit last weekend and we all had a little to drink. Nothing to major mind you, just something to loosen ones nerves. Anyway we where horsing around and having fun when she tried to kiss me. I know she still likes me but yeah. My husband was not too happy but says he isn’t gonna hover on it since I did tell him. I myself am just confused on what I should do. Either way, it was a hella funny scene. XD And Boogy, if you are reading this, don’t take it the wrong way. ^^; Be sure to give me a call before making any assumptions based on this post.
On other more normal news, Big Red has towed our car and will begin fixing it. I am very hopeful that it will be done soon. Then Link can drive to work and not worry if he has a ride anymore.
Also, I have been searching for an artist to draw out the design I made for my possible tattoo. I’m still not sure I’ll get one because I don’t want to disapoint my family. It’s just that to me, tattoo’s can be a beautiful thing. I dunno, think once its finished be drawn I’ll take it around to show everyone and see what they feel. I know it is my choice in the end, but I don’t want my family to to be u[pset by it. You know?
